So I'm 41 today...

So I'm 41 today... and I've never felt so happy, at peace, accomplished and ALIVE. I can't even begin to list all of the changes I've gone through personally over the years and I'm not even sure the old me and the new me would get along very well, but one thing is for certain: I do not regret one step in the journey to here. I spent too many years living under the direction and influence of a system of beliefs being taught and followed by good people who were just as brainwashed as I was and I've never felt more free being far away from it all. Still I'm glad I made good and bad choices along the way and every single experience was making me the man I would grow to be. The best thing I've done through it all? I've been, am and always will be one of the best fathers on the planet. Period. Once I heard an angry religious man say that good fathers stay in the home regardless of the state of the relationship between the parents. I've called bullshit on that all my life. People change and I refuse to remain in any toxic relationship and allow my kids to grow up in a fake home life. I spent many years watching families look and act one way on Sunday mornings and then be completely different the rest of the time. I believe in peace, love, romance, friendship and intimacy in a solid relationship and I damn sure would not want my boys growing up in a home where mom and dad yelled at one another, discouraged one another and were totally unhappy with one another. I've always been honest with my kids. Life can get hard, people can and do fall out of the love the fell into if they do not nourish the relationship. People should also never, ever want to change the person they claim to adore. We are who we are. Friends and aquaintences have come and gone as well. Some relationships are seasonal, temporary. As we all learn, grow and change- so will the people we associate with. Real friends will always be around- even if months pass with silence we will pick up where we left off with no hard feelings. I'm ok with blowing in the wind like a leaf and living where I land. I love my traveling life living out of a suitcase and a van. Here's to 41 more!