Random notes from last night's show (and authentic ramblings)

Last night's original show really has me thinking this morning. The room was full. The people were there to listen to me (and drink some truly amazing craft brews). I did not use a set list- instead I just pulled my songs out of my tired brain one by one, telling a few half true stories as I went...last night reminded me why I play tons of "cover song shows" just to make a living... In order to finally arrive at those few all original song nights.
For as long as I remember I've been writing songs, recording them in anyway I could at that time period and then either selling home made demos OR giving away tapes and CD's with my "progress" along the way to the people who gravitated towards me while on this journey. When I had the chance to record my first "professional" album in Nashville, 2006 I was told by producers and industry executives to "stop releasing crap and junk and hold out for only your professionally recorded material" so for a short time I agreed and stopped releasing anything at all while I allowed "them" to "shop my pro album" and try for a recording or publishing deal. As many of you know that never happened so I can home to NC, continued raising my kids, working two jobs, trying to make marriages work, finding myself-who I truly was becoming and wrote more and more songs then released them ALL as demo albums. I made recordings with laptop computers, tape players (anyone remember those?). I even began recording myself using my iPhone and it didn't sound bad at all so.... I even released many of those songs. You can hear and even download many of those songs at my archive site www.jamiecarrollmusic.bandcamp.com Bill Mallonee has done this much longer than I have and he's mastered the art of being... An artist. He's realized what took years for me to realize: No one owns me, my art, my music, my life. No one dictates my next move on this highway. It's mine just as you all have yours. It's up to us individually to make our own choices and decide what's best for us in every area (especially us artists) who love what we do and choose to share it with others daily. So now, years later I've released hundreds of demos and a few "pro albums" and one thing relates the two: Authenticity. I can not and will not be anything other than me. My song lyrics will continue to mention love, hate, truth, lies, questions, ponderings, facts, fiction, gods, devils, faith, lack of faith, belief, lack of belief, sex, lust, embarrassment, resentment, regret, celebration, mourning, joy, tears, laughter.... You know- the human experience in all its glory and wonder! That- is me. That- is my music- demos, studio recordings and all... And thank YOU for being a part and wanting to be a part of it all. When you eventually hear my first of four new albums "The Book of James Chapter One" I hope you will hear all of those emotions listed above, but more than anything... I hope you FEEL something, several things really... I created this album to move you as it moves me and I hope it will do what it was created to do. I hope you realize one important thing as well: these songs were made right here in Winston Salem, NC. Not in Nashville, California or any other place that producers have told me "you need to be". Also- polishing up your finished product is generally desired and needed in order to "fit" with other contemporary productions, HOWEVER... While polishing and mastering this one, I've been very picky about not making it too shiny. I want you to hear a production that did take over a year, BUT I want you to hear what authenticity sounds like... From my soul to yours. Until again ya'll...